Plain Old Jen

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Let's Go..

This is a picture of Jesus and I walking along a path arm in arm (we are suppose to be holding hands but I made us to close together). Anyways, tonight as I was quieting myself before God, He gave me a picture, and this is it. I could see us walking hand and hand along my path of life and it was awesome. Sometimes I would get really frustrated and let go of His hand and He would fall behind and I could see myself getting more and more frustrated until I fell to my knees and cried and while I stop He would then catch up, reach out His hand and we would walk together again.
Then sometimes I would get really excited and shake off His hand and then run ahead, I would be looking back at Him and He would say wait up and I would be so excited that I would just keep running. But then I would come to some obstacle and I would have to wait for Him to get there and then of course He would help me over, under or through whatever it was.
Through this I just realized that things are just easier when we walk with Him and stay with Him, when we don't let go and try to do things on our own, or when we don't leave Him behind when we are excited. No, we need to take Him with us no matter what..walk with Him down our journey of life. Not that is going to make all the obstacles go away, but it sure does make it easier to have the help.
I am just really flabbergasted with God the last couple of days, He has just shown and revealed Himself new to me. And I feel like I am on a journey to love Him more and that excites me...
This is a song that I have been listening too for the last little while and I have kind of made it a prayer and I want to share it with you so that you can use it as a pray too!!

Above All Else
Jesus, my passion in life is to know You
May all other goals bow down to
This journey of loving You more
Jesus, You’ve showered Your goodness on me
Given Your gifts so freely
But there’s one thing I’m longing for
Hear my heart’s cry
And my prayer for this life
Above all else
Above all else
Above all else
Give me Yourself
Savior, the more that I see Your beauty
The more that I glimpse Your glory
My heart is captured by You
Jesus, You are my greatest treasure
Nothing this world can offer
Could ever compare to You
So, hear my heart’s cry
And my prayer for this life
Pray this prayer and Walk with Jesus...I dare You..

Sunday, May 06, 2007

When the tears fall...

Lately I have been going through a time of transition and for those of you who know me, know that I don't deal with transition very well and those of you who don't know, do now! A lot of things have been changing in my life the past few weeks and it has caused my heart to grieve. And grieve it did, I have cried a lot and could cry at the drop of a dime. One moment I would be fine and the next I would be hiding myself in my room sobbing uncontrollably. I am not going to lie it is a weird place to be in especially when you are someone who doesn't like to cry and still feels a little uncomfortable when others cry (God's working on that though).

So I decided that I needed to go the beach because that is where I feel closes to God. So I packed my bag and left for good ole Maces Bay. I ended up on the beach Thursday afternoon for almost 4 hours. It was great. I am sure that if anyone had of seen me they would of thought I was crazy because not only was I talking to God out loud but yelling at Him...We chatted for a long time and we agree that even though I was going through a transitional time that I still loved Him and He still loved me, even though I called Him a few names....

Today while writing an email to a friend, I read this passage from the bible that I have read and heard a million times but it was different today, "God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand. I'm an open book to you; even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking. You know when I leave and when I get back; I'm never out of your sight. You know everything I'm going to say before I start the first sentence. I look behind me and you're there, then up ahead and you're there, too— your reassuring presence, coming and going. This is too much, too wonderful— I can't take it all in! " Psalm 139 (The Message)

When I read this I just took a deep breath and felt really peaceful. Why? Because Jesus is before, with and after me, so why bother worrying...And the Psalmist is right, it is too much, too wonderful...I can't take it all in...but what I can take is marvelous!! Thank you Jesus for putting up with me!!