God gave me a picture.....

In my last post I discussed that I was struggling with an inner battle. Well I still am and there has been lost of tears shed and lots of crying out. One morning as I was sitting and listening and praying God gave me this picture...It was a picture of me in a desert, and I am standing there looking out at the never ending journey ahead of me. I start to panic and think to myself, "how on earth am I going to do this" and I am just overwhelmed and beside myself. Then another picture comes to me. It is the same picture but in this one God is there and I can hear Him very clearly...Jen, you need to surrender to me and I will help you through this journey. Then I see myself, fall at His feet, sob, and cry out. The He puts out His hand, helps me up and says, "You ready? Let's Go" and hand in hand God and I begin my journey....

Inner Battles

I've realized lately that I am struggling with an inner battle that I didn't really know I had (I hate those ones). This battle is one that goes way back in my life and it is something I didn't really think was affecting me or maybe the better choice of words is that I was in denial about it.

After a conversation with a friend I realized this "struggle" is something I have been battling for a long time and isn't going to go way. I am not going to lie, I'm afraid to start dealing with it because I don't really know how to start and it means a lot of pain I need to face...

But on the upside I have a God who is all powerful and almighty. I just ask that you keep me in your prayers...

Small Things...

Lately God has been showing me that He is in the small things. Ever since He has brought it to my attention I have been notice more and more. I guess before God opened my eyes to this I never really stopped to notice or honestly really even cared.

For me this has really deepen my relationship with God and I feel like I am on a whole new level with him. It is an amazing feeling that I am having a hard time putting into words.

For those of you who know me, know that I am not good with words never have been and maybe never will. When I was thinking about what to write in this post I got a picture (I know, hard to believe..haha), the picture was just like the one up in the left hand corner but in black and white. It took me a minute to see what God was trying to say to me and then I clued in.

The dandelion is a whole flower every part of it, so one could say that it is made up of many small parts which God has so perfectly put together. And that is the same for us, God has meticulously put us together with every small detail planned out. We just need to trust Him.